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Testimony #1: Silence
In stark winter white from Your eyes, escapes not a mite a frozen tear unshed a stolen heart You rescue.
My silence You hear in a forest still and solo, guarded yet besieged, beset by a myriad of fears, bids no one enter in.
My own self hidden, but known to You, my fear You hear but bid it farewell.
Testimony #2: Passenger
Change my view of You that I would have an appetite to meet You this week. I have gotten off the el stop and am still waiting for the next train to pick me back up. Help me exit the station. I live my life on that train.
Testimony #3: Ransom
My praise was bought at a price unspeakable,
the plea of a prisoner,
no longer bound by her defeated jailer.
You purchased and redeemed my broken cry,
weak but spoken.
Change my heart
to crave life,
to love mercy,
to thirst for truth,
to seek all for wisdom,
to know and accept Your grace and pleasure.
Use my life to speak Your truth for healing unto those who need it.
Fill my mouth with words of life.
Testimony #4: Class
You chose to be born in a barn
You came first to shepherds
You were raised as a construction worker
You discipled fishermen
You taught farmers and laborers
You befriended a Samaritan woman
You comforted a prostitute
Testimony #5: Freedom
You remove the scales from my eyes,
the wax from my ears,
the dullness of my heart,
the blindness of my mind.
You unbind me from my bondage,
ingrained lies.
You bind my wounds and teach me
it is safe to trust You,
to stop hiding my wounds,
to stop accepting my wounds
as what I deserve of my sins.
Death is what I deserve,
yet You conquered the grave.
You command life over me,
You lead me in paths of righteousness for Your Name¡¦s sake.
You anoint me with joy and gladness,
You free my spirit from hiding from You,
You remove the bonds of rebellion,
confusion and condemnation.
You banish all thought apart from You.
You free my gaze to be drawn to You,
no longer mired in my broken self,
but to peek at my Creator ¡V
and to discover not an angry Judge,
but an anointed King,
who invites me to His side,
who teaches me a new song,
who filles me with an undeserved peace,
who claims me for His own,
who removes my darkness,
who calls me by name,
who lets me hear His voice.
Testimony #6: Holy War
In that room,
You fought with Your blood,
loudly proclaiming your banner of love over me
that paid the price
to win that battle
to win my war.
Your angels fought every night
every hour
every moment -
My daughter does not belong to you.
THIS ONE IS NOT YOURS!
She was bought with My blood and Mine alone.
She belongs to ME!
Even that room,
flooded with Your tears
weeping over my lostness
pursuing me with Your unyielding love.
Testimony #7: Eve
I work
I dress
I speak
I walk
to dictate the desire of man
since I discovered they rule this world.
I have been angry with an unyielding bitterness
that no one can set me free of,
none can satiate my desire for power.
I have rejected being a girl since high school
when most girls were discovering their womanhood.
I despise emotion, my greatest weakness.
I pride myself on my intellect - my only means of getting even with men,
until I began to discover they are powerless physically
the lust of their eyes reduces them to dust.
So I channel my bitterness and resentment into an all-consuming desire for mental, physical, emotional control over them.
My appearance will be flawless,
unattainable,
unknowable,
inaccessible.
My bitterness and brokenness weave a stumbling, impure labyrinth
that taunts men to disassemble
that lures their spirit of conquest
unto my own destruction.
Mastery of men
Equality with men
powers the hours I slave and sacrifice to work
in vain
commands the hours I construct my unapproachable exterior
carves the abyss of my infinite self-loathing, physically, mentally
authors my dark shadow of discontent
that mars my every accomplishment
constantly crying out for more
when will you be like him?
haughty,
brilliant,
wildly successful,
effortlessly witty,
coolly controlled
engaging, disarming,
he who has it all,
faceless is his name,
Satan is his author.
Release me from my hunger for spoken affirmation from men.
It is deep,
starving, roaming,
desperate,
clamoring.
My broken desires - unbind my heart of these
so I could finally run free
and desire for once to be Your daughter
whom I've always regarded as lesser.
I've only ever wanted to be David, Peter,
Paul.
May I be like Eve when she met Adam, who had been seeking her all his life,
to know she was deeply wanted
she was the only one
she belonged to the master of her home
she was called to be alongside he for whom she was created.
Repair and restore my understanding and acceptance of Your holy union
marriage as created and ordained by You
for man and woman to serve each other in love.
Teach me I am complete.
Show me You care, You protect,
You do not abandon me.
No man is stronger than You. You do not grant me desires that You cannot fulfill. Show me I lack for nothing,
for You are my Father.
I do not need to control my life,
You control the universe.
I need not be perfect before You.
You are perfect for me,
on my behalf
You died a perfect death
that I could be broken in Your presence.
Testimony #8: Whole
From my father, You created me with a brilliant, bold, clear mind
to know You,
to help others know You more.
You speak to me and light my mind on fire,
You dazzle me with Your truth,
the perfection of Your thought,
the wholeness of Your Word.
You lift my mind to soar with You,
to hear Your Word proclaimed in the heavenly realms.
You lead me to explore the great mysteries of Your Word,
spoken to man for our deliverance.
You lead me in Your truth victorious, unafraid.
You, O Lord, are the Author and Creator of my mind,
curious and hungry,
unafraid.
You are the Maker of my mouth,
bold for Your people ¡V
to proclaim Your triumph,
to claim Your salvation,
to declare Your victory,
to spread Your healing.
To make known Your Word of truth
that has power to free
release
reform
conform
transform
renew
rebirth
purify
cleanse
rebuke
defend
establish
rescue
ransom
redeem
declare
proclaim
renounce
denounce
bind
defeat
conquer.
Mighty, Almighty is Your Word.
Holy are Your prophets,
those who speak Your divine words of truth.
Your Word returns fulfilled,
It does not return fruitless,
but accomplishes Your will.
From my mother, You give me the gift of speech
to proclaim Your truth.
From my father, You made me with a big heart,
to be generous, to lavish Your love on Your people,
because Your goodness delights in giving good gifts.
You call me to show mercy and bless Your people,
because You show mercy.
You are mercy to me, You are my mercy.
You did not create me in judgment.
You defeated the law of sin and death in me.
You gave me a lion¡¦s heart,
to be bold and unafraid for my King,
to testify in high places Your Almighty Name.
You are my Prince of Peace.
I serve the King of Kings,
I serve the Lord of Lords.
You formed my hands to do mighty works for You
with all my creativity,
all original thought is born in You, Creator of all
with all my energy,
You are the Giver of life
with all my strength,
the joy of the Lord is my strength
with all discipline
with all my power.
I reject I am not smart enough.
You empower my mind to fight for Your people.
I reject I have a bad, small heart.
You create in me a clean heart,
You renew a steadfast spirit in me.
I reject my spirit of fear that has no authority over me.
In Your precious blood shed for me,
I claim loudly Your blessings for me,
My child, consecrated to God
who declares God¡¦s praise and goodness with a righteous spirit,
who delivers God¡¦s truth and good news with joy and boldness.
A clear mind to serve and lead Your kingdom,
empowered to proclaim and make known Your truth.
A bold heart to serve and champion Your kingdom,
to share healing to the lost, broken and needy.
Unafraid of the darkness that causes brokenness,
for greater is Your light,
the light of Your love,
that claims and proclaims hope that Your promise and fulfill.
A heart for Your people
To lavish on them Your very good gifts,
gifts without demand,
to share the richness of knowing You.
A heart that fears You, rather than man.
These blessings I claim in Your Almighty, holy Name.
To You be the glory in my life.
Amen
Testimony #1: I¡¦m really thankful about coming to PCS in the end of 2010. I believe I¡¦ve received things that are eternal in this 5-day period. I¡¦ve learned the importance of spending time with Abba Father. I¡¦ve learned also to constantly live my life filled by the Holy Spirit.
I realized that there were still many things that I hid from God before coming to PCS. These things included many of my hurts in the past, and I need healings in these areas too. At PCS, I¡¦ve taken these hidden secrets to God and asked for forgiveness. And I am sanctified once again! Praise the Lord.
From this day on, I will spend time with God everyday and listen to Him. I¡¦ll ask to be filled by the Holy Spirit at all times, and live a life of complete sanctification!
Testimony #2: These five days I received a lot of cleansing and healing from the Lord. It¡¦s no longer a knowledge that reside in my head that ¡§Jesus loves me¡¨. I experienced His love through out these few days. I saw the sins in my life and He has taken them away one by one as I confessed them. I also experienced healing in my life. I forgave my father of all the hurts and pain he brought to my family. As I hug the surrogate father, God showed me He¡¦d give me the Father¡¦s heart so that I¡¦ll be the father for my kids (both physical and spiritual). He has begun this good work in my life and He will bring it to completion. Thank you, Jesus!
Testimony #3: I feel so light. The entire ¡§curriculum¡¨ of PCS seems to be tailor-made for me. God first humbled me on the first day, then He answered all my questions about sin (and the demonic forces associated with Tai Chi etc.), and finally¡K. He cleansed me utterly. I opened up all my dark secrets to Him. And He washed me thoroughly. It¡¦s like ¡K for the first time in months, or even years, I could open up the entire self as I worship Him, without any reservation, guilt, or shame. I no longer have anything hidden. He forgave me for all my sexual, relational and even idolatry sins.
From this day on, I have Jesus Christ as the one I love most. Nothing, no strongholds, may stand between Him and me. The Holy Spirit dwells within me. May He make all my decisions for me. I shall listen with a yearning, submitted heart. Jesus, I love You!
Testimony #4: I¡¦ve been doing TWA for a few years now, so I wasn¡¦t expecting anything new at PCS. The only difference, I thought, was the use of German-made color pens. However, as I highlight God¡¦s attributes, promises and human sins, I received so much more than ever before! I feel that His Word is jumping into life and I just want to copy every word of His down. God¡¦s Word is so powerful and delicious and satisfying. I¡¦m finding the treasure of knowing him through His Word. I¡¦m also finding the love, blessing and promises that he has stored for me. I¡¦m so excited!
When I saw the children in LSV, I know there is a reason why God has blessed me so much in my life ¡V so I may be a blessing to many. I commit to offer to LSV so His name can be glorified. I don¡¦t want to miss his heart. For His heart is for the oppressed, the poor, the orphans and the disables. I thank God for further burdening my heart to give to the poor. I know I will have a breakthrough financially as I begin to give instead of accumulating wealth in this world. I know God will deliver me from materialism and pursue of American dream. I will live knowing that my treasure is in heaven.
Testimony #5:
Day 1:
- God introduced me to worship in a way I never had experienced before. Probably felt God¡¦s presence as never before.
- God told me that He would reveal the mission He had for my life.
- God told me to leave my work aside and just to sit at His feet and listen.
Day 2:
- -God showed me that tongues, healing and prophecy have not ceased.
- -God taught me not to trust energy healing and freed me from any possible Qi-related bondages including acupressure, yoga etc.
- -God showed me the pattern of recovery: confession, casting demons out, cutting curses, embracing God
- God told me that He is starting the bloodline anew in me.
- God freed me from Qi spirits.
Day 3:
- God taught me to flee occultism and instructed me that my blood has occult bonds. He freed me from the bonds.
- God did a partial healing of my hurts and holes from lack of paternal affirmation and expressed affection
Day 4:
- God taught me in a very unusual way (by way of an attack of doubt from the enemy) that feelings do not necessarily mean I am healed / not healed. I must have faith that He has done His work.
- God healed my relationship with and my hurts from family members and classmates.
- God freed me from sexual bondage!! Including bonds resulting from bloodline. This freedom I intend to protect at all costs.
Day 5:
- God reminded me to be humble and revealed a calling to LSV (Living Stones Village)
Testimony #6: God showed me that I do have generational sins I did not know about. But He also showed me how to cut that off so I can be clean! Not just for me but also for my family. God has also shown me that He is pleased with my offering to Him; even though I think it is small and insignificant. I¡¦m so glad to know that Jesus sees my heart! I¡¦ve also learned that although I always tell my kid to obey me, I myself have been a disobedient child to my heavenly Father. What a revelation! I have confessed and from now on will do my best to be the little girl that always listens to her Father and obey Him, because I know that He loves me so much! Praise God for all the worship time, TWA time, and prayer time, eating and sleeping time. I needed all that! Praise god for my husband who has been praying for me to come to PCS. Now I know why. I pray that from now on in my life every day is like a PCS!
Testimony #7: While at PCS God has removed things in my life that I didn¡¦t even know I was carrying. Something was lifted off of me while cutting the curse of freemasonry. The biggest thing God did in my life was revealing the bitterness that I had towards my dad. I have forgiven him and received God¡¦s forgiveness and grace. I also confessed verbally for the first time my sexual sins. Now I believe that God has removed my shame and I can stand clean before my Abba Father. Thank you, Jesus!
Testimony #8: God delivered me from sins of criticism, judgmental spirit, pride of ministry, manipulation, controlling, mental fantasy, and sexual sin. He healed me of muscle pain; sense of inadequacy and need to meet my children¡¦s every need. Breakthrough ¡V understanding of bondage caused by any involvement in freemasonry affiliated organizations. Complete reassembly of my soul by reclaiming any broken parts given to anyone except my husband. Time with Abba is a feast for my hungry spirit, reawakening and recognition of the power of God¡¦s Word. True desire to decrease that Christ my increase until I disappear and He become my all in all.
Testimony #9: I received a physical healing of my left knee. When I sit in my favorite position my left leg bent or stand up, it would be painful and stiff. After confessing and renouncing generational sins, I stood up to walk across the room, and from my knee there were two audible pops. I later noticed my pain and stiffness were no more after sitting for a while. My eyes have been opened to the depth of the demonic effects of Qi through various cultures, martial arts, massage and other ¡§natural¡¨ healing methods. I had the opportunity to be cleansed from past involvement with Qi. I have also received much love & hugs from God. There are only a few highlights of my amazing 5 days at PCS. I am grateful to my Lord and Savior, the King of kings and Lord of lords.
Testimony #10: God healed my heart from fearing of death. Through the healing power of Holy Spirit, my relational sins, sexual sins and generational sins are casted off in the name of Jesus. I¡¦m covered by the blood of God. I ask the Lord to fill me with Holy Spirit. I read God¡¦s Word and use His Word to heal. God has set me free from hurt memories of death experience of each people from childhood, teenage and adult. I asked God to cast out dark spirit, out of my mind, body and spirit and fill me with Holy Spirit and cover me with Jesus¡¦ blood. Thank you.
Testimony #11: Two things God revealed to me at this PCS are:
- The soul ties that I¡¦ve had with 7 evil spirits (tai qi, martial art, yoga, moxibuxin, acupuncture, massage and chiropractor) are the cause of my inability to memorize Scriptures. I prayed for the eviction of these bad spirits and the cut-off of the soul ties between me and them. I expect that from now on I will be able to memorize Scriptures.
- The root of my lack of compassion/empathy for others is the unmet need of physical affection from my earthly father. Being born and raised as the middle child among many children, I was neglected and deprived of my father¡¦s love. On the other hand I resented him for the hurt and pain that he caused in my life. At this PCS, I was able to forgive him and pray for his salvation. The burden of pleasing him to earn his love and the resentment toward him were released and delivered. I received the comfort hug from the surrogate father that I¡¦ve long waited from my earthly father. The healing and forgiveness that I received from the heavenly father will enable me to show compassion to others.
Testimony #12: I praise my God for He has been a gentle and loving healer to me. I came battered, bruised and wounded. I came because I knew that God can only heal me, but I was fearful that the process of dismantling ad healing would be overwhelming because I thought He would not recognize me. While in the Middle East, I faced great opposition ad really got beat up and of course I cannot exclude my own disobedience. I was so ashamed. I came only to find a loving and gentle God who took me in His arms and was with me. He healed me and now my joy is restored in the Lord. Thank you God for you are victorious.
Testimony #13: In these 5 days of PCS, I had received a firm answer that I am loved, and His mercy and grace have always been with me. PCS inner healing sessions have helped me to find love, joy and peace that were lost growing up from my parents¡¦ divorce, being aboard oversea alone, and broken heart experiences. I also confessed my relational & sexual sins to the Lord and now that my burden is light and reborn in Christ again. Please keep praying for God¡¦s ultimate plan for me as his servant and to learn to love Him every day of my life.
Testimony #14: There are so many praises I want to offer, but have limited of time to write down. But to name a few, the Lord is God of truth. The Holy Spirit has guided me to review my sins from childhood & including those before birth. I¡¦ve forgiven my dad for neglecting my mom & me. I¡¦ve learnt to bless my parents & able to see how I inherit the blessings of God thru them. Also, when I confessed of my sexual sins, the Holy Spirit revealed to me how much of the awful things that I have done or suffered from. The confession process is both challenging & comforting, knowing that the Lord has forgiven me & accepted me. I can now lift up my head to serve the Lord without shame.
Last but not least, the TWA is truly a feast. Finding keywords is difficult because every word from God is KEY! I thank the Lord for giving me a double edged sword to pierce thru the joint so that the bloodline of Jesus can go directly my marrow & completely change my body, soul & spirit. Hallelujah, amen.
Testimony #15: I received God¡¦s healing for my broken heart through this PCS. I realized that many strongholds in my life were preventing me from fully worshiping God. Through His Word I see now how and why my spirit, mind, and soul must follow God in unison. God¡¦s grace freed my heart from worldly love so that my heart is free and open to love God, the things & people He wants me to love. With God¡¦s help I will seek to minister His peace to my family and church. May their hearts be free to put God first and to depend on Him only. The Lord is my portion and I am more than blessed.
Testimony #16: I have been to PCS twice; I felt that I was liberated in an indescribable way after the first PCS experience. That feeling did not occur immediately after the 5-day conference but it had a long lasting effect. At work I was able to speak up more often, although before PCS I was always worried that I¡¦d said something stupid in front of my boss. Through PCS I was affirmed that I am a child of God, and ¡§if God is with me, whom then shall I fear?¡¨ I was assured that in God¡¦s grace I am allowed to make honest mistakes at work, I shall have no fear of my superior at work, I felt that at work I have received a lot of God¡¦s favor that I haven¡¦t realized before.
During the first PCS, I have confessed a lot of sins and felt closer to God. But I decided to go to PCS for the second time because I felt that there were still issues and sins that entangle my daily life. I am very glad to come back to PCS again and have a deeper cleansing. Today¡¦s TWA passage say that ¡§Blessed are those who wash their robes.¡¨ I felt very blessed that I was able to wash my sins and today¡¦s passage just reaffirmed me that I need to truly commit to God again as His love is too vast & too deep, and I truly cannot again & again pierce Jesus Christ on the cross with my sins.
Testimony #17: PCS is an answer to my prayer. I have been asking Jesus for his guidance and direction for my next step toward wholeness and healing as I came to realize my need for healing from sexual molestation. I the last year and a half, I came to realize that I was very frigid, confused, and feelings of ¡§being used¡¨ would permeated through my mind and hear whenever I would engage in act of intimacy with my husband. I started to feel resentful that my husband found me desirous and for a long time I blamed him (men) for not having any self-control.
But as I spent time in prayer and as I read Genesis again, I came to realize and have conviction that perhaps it¡¦s not my husband but it¡¦s me ¡V that my body was defiled at a young age and therefore I couldn¡¦t enjoy what God gave as a gift, what He created for my husband and I to enjoy as husband and wife. God created sex and He intended it to be enjoyed, pleasurable, and to be an expression of full acceptance and love in marriage. But because of the defilement, I was unable to enter into fullness of God¡¦s amazing gift.
As my husband and I prayed and discussed what we want to do, I felt like counseling might be helpful, but what I really needed was Jesus to cleanse me, to heal the broken heart, and to make me new. I wasn¡¦t sure how exactly He wanted to do this, but He had PCS in mind for me.
The Lord has been generous and gracious to me. I shared with my group that I wanted prayer for healing in this specific area of my life and I believe that He has. During one of the prayer sessions (healing & memories) I sensed the Lord was cleaning every part of my body that was violated. I may have my body still but it is new ¡V clean and no longer defiled. Thank you Jesus for setting me free so I can enjoy sex with my hubby.
Testimony #18: Before I came to PCS, I had a lot of doubts, questions, secrets and darkness in my life. I had regrets ad was working if I made the right choice in the past few years. The 2nd day God answered me and let me know I am in the right path. I didn¡¦t make wrong decisions. All these are His plan for me and His plans are the best for me. I have no need to look back and feet regrets. I am in better hand. God healed me through PCS in the past 5 days. He delivered me & over come my fear. God let me know I¡¦m not lost. I don¡¦t need to be afraid because He¡¦s here within me. He¡¦s been protecting me and carrying me through. Now it¡¦s the time He want me to walk ext to Him and reach out to others.
Jesus had healed me from the hurt of family curse that was in many of my generations. God casted out the demon in me and emptied out the dirty sins in my blood in my head. He cleansed and purified me, then filled His grace and Holy Spirit in me. I am purified and cleaned and set free from the secret and dark side that was with me for so many years. Now there¡¦s no secret in me. I¡¦ve been set free. I feel safe and happy. I have so much joy in my heart after the deep cleansing in these 5 days. I told myself I¡¦ll continue the spiritual discipline and continue doing TWA after PCS in the following year.
Testimony #19: Through PCS, I received insight and revelation of my sin, my life, my background, my belief and my understanding of the Scriptures. God has shown me a new picture of who He is, how worthy He is, and my sin. God has convicted me of my religious spirit and placing myself, my family line and my church above others and more importantly ¡V you (God). I have confessed my weakness in worshipping man and leaders in my life and having anger toward church leaders. God has lovingly drawn me to repentance as I continue to fall more deeply in love with Him. He has shown His faithfulness more and more in my life. Now I can trust Him for the parts of future that I don¡¦t know about and believe He has orchestrated Himself in the areas that I do see coming. I want to fall in love with Him like a lover and know that I am married to Him! Until God leads another to be with me and I continue to still love God as my first love. God healed memories and areas of hurt from my past. Praise God!
Testimony #20: There are too many good things that happened to share here, but here it is in a nutshell. Coming to PCS reaffirmed my worth as a valued child of God, despite my past transgressions / pride / accomplishments etc. I was skeptical of PCS at first but God reminded me that there has not been a time when I earnestly sought God and had not been fulfilled / healed. There were times I was uncomfortable having most of my family members here but in the end, it was a positive thing as we spent Wednesday night praying, singing and crying together. I am glad we came together. The speeches on sexual sin were particularly moving for me because I am especially weak in that area and I am filled with joy that I received healing for my past sexual transgressions. PCS also reaffirmed my commitment to become a healer and physician for God and to quit relying on my own mental capacity of ability (which is very limited, ha ha). I have faith that in following God and putting Him first, he will allow me to thrive at medical school and to be a spectacular physician.
Testimony #1: Before coming, I was very busy, always rushing around. I had very few chances to worship and read the bible to really meet God. I knew I had many areas to be healed, but not many opportunities to receive the healing. God bought me this week as a week of replenishment and restoration. I don¡¦t think I¡¦ve ever had a chance to spend so long being on myself! As I worshipped and prayed to cut off sin, I felt layers being stripped off. Which received so much joy and a feeling of being very light. He showed me just how by myself, I am so small but with Him I have the power and authority to flight, knowing I¡¦ll win every time. I can go back in a much better position to help others, as my help will be coming from a most healed self. And I will be able to put more energy in having been rejuvenated by the Lord of the Sabbath.
Testimony #2: It was a taste of Heaven on earth. I felt that I was indeed on holy ground. The trouble was that on that first night, I felt so dirty, so filthy. How was God going to reach down to my innermost being? How was he going to reach the inner recesses of my soul? How was he going to reach my dark side, that I, and He, know about? But that was just it, He did know about it, because He is all knowing. But how was he going to deal with me? Would there be condemnation? Would there be shame? Yes, I did feel shame, but not from God. Oh, he didn¡¦t like to see me in my present condition, but all I felt was His love ¡V His love for me and it melt my heart. The Lord says, ¡§Now let¡¦s settle the matter. You are stained red with sin, but I will wash you as clean as snow. Although your stains are deep red, you will be as white as wool. If you only obey me ¡K.¡¨ And so it was out of an act of obedience that I attended the PCS 5-day retreat. And God met me, just where I was with all my dirt and with all my shame. He gently, oh, so gently, lifted me out of the dirt, and as I opened myself up to Him, as I confessed my sin He began to clean me up.
But at PCS ¡V I wasn¡¦t alone, other men and women were walking the same journey each of us with our own hurts. We were walking the journey together. I felt so much support from the other guys ¡V as they too opened up their lives to the love of the Father. Now, a new day has dawned and we continue to walk that journey with God as he changes us from glory to glory.
Testimony #3: But since renouncing self-hatred, years of strongholds are starting to crumble and lose ground. I realize that because of my mother¡¦s absence in the critical first years of my life, I felt abandoned by her. Deep inside of me, I felt ¡§since I was not important enough to Mom, I am not a very worthy person¡¨, and I despised myself. I believe much of this has been in my subconscious. I lined up for Mother¡¦s hug as usual. But because I asked forgiveness of my self-hatred, I was able to receive even more deeply from being hugged by my surrogate Mom. I received the hug with all my heart, receiving my well-being by faith and sobbing uncontrollably.
For the first time in my life, I can really see my inability to ¡§totally accept¡¨ God¡¦s unconditional love. In my ¡§head knowledge,¡¨ I knew God¡¦s Grace, but I always had difficulty perceiving it as an absolutely free gift. I always went back to the place of trying to ¡§earn¡¨ His love, to be ¡§good enough¡¨ for Him. My self-hatred has sabotaged His Grace. I actually rejected it! Now I daily I go to Abba Father to receive my well-being by faith.
Now it makes sense why I am so critical of myself.? I was a perfectionist and often irritated by my small mistakes. Unfortunately, this spilled over to a critical spirit toward others, especially nitpicking my husband. I tried everything to stop this, but with a very slow progress. Now, I daily receive His abundant joy just by faith. I do my best not to analyze myself (a crippling habit!). On the last day after communion, a dear brother prayed over me: ¡§Don¡¦t pay attention to your inner self¡¨ (He had no idea what I was going through.) I do ¡§feel¡¨ more joyful each day! When I catch myself frowning, I start praising Him, no matter what. This is a daily discipline!
Testimony #4: My group in PCS has been so wonderful. They in themselves have brought me healing and redemption because they gave me a chance to experience the nurturing of mother and the encouragement of an older sister which is what I have missed when I was very young growing up. This was revealed to me by the Holy Spirit as I take the time to write my life story. And I really enjoyed doing TWA especially those times when we start proclaiming who God is, then confess our sins and then claim our inheritance as what the scriptures say. I also loved doing the intercession, especially being the scribe, I believe God has revealed to me in this time how to pray especially pray with me and this has been a tremendous eye opener to me. I will continue to do this way of interceding as I believe this will really move mountains and make breakthroughs for God¡¦s kingdom. Worship was awesome! I now understand what Lillian meant when she said that TWA helps us be in unity in the Spirit and with each other. Thank you Abraham ¡V I really like your sense of humor, thank you Lillian ¡V I like your fierceness of love for Jesus and thank you for all the workers ¡V you guys have taught me what it is to be really humble. Jesus really loves you and Papa is pleased with all of you.
Testimony #5: People may see me as an Ok person even I myself didn¡¦t know that I needed any healing. The truth was revealed after we read the Bible passage again. God¡¦s heart for me is not to condemn me but ask me to give room in my inner being to let Him come in. He knows everything including the things I tried to avoid to remember consciously or subconsciously. God made me understand that Jesus came to take away all my filthiness, His blood already cleansed me with or without my acknowledgement. I¡¦m ¡§entirely¡¨ clean and pure after and came to Him in humility. I remembered the time when I first accepted Jesus Christ as savior, I cried, because I was amazed by His forgiveness and His love for me, the sinner. But 8 years later here I was standing before Him, I felt I was a ¡§bigger¡¨ sinner. More stuff in me was taken out, more shame was found. I felt awful, I felt dirty. I didn¡¦t want to confess before the Cross in the view of others, but the Holy Spirit prompted me, I knew if I wanted to be clean again, to be used by the Lord, I had to do this confession in public. It was terrifying, I¡¦m glad that I did. I know I¡¦m safe in Christ, the darkness has left me. Thank you, servant of the Lord our God in heaven. Now I¡¦m leaving here as a new being.
Testimony #6: PCS helped me to heal the broken places in my life that have held me back from true intimacy with the Spirit. In the past week I¡¦ve been able to forgive those who hurt me and most importantly forgive myself. Time with Abba has been a true blessing and it is something that I will carry with me and my family for the rest of my life. I thank God for this breakthrough week to bring closer to the Father and take me to such deeper levels in my spiritual walk and my prayer life. This has been a real light and a time of rest and recharging for my soul.
Testimony #7: Before arriving at PCS, I had felt more and more that I needed to continue to pray through cultural and generational issues ¡V namely the Fertility goddess that had been revered many years back in my country of origin Ghana. This fertility goddess was believed to be the wife of the God of the sky! The teaching on Baal and Ashtoreth was great, and it put a name on my ancestors idolatry ¡V they had worshipped Baal and Ashtoreth and that was why I continued to struggle with strongholds and imagery in my mind. Great to be able to name it and cut it off. I don¡¦t have to live under that curse!
Testimony #8: God has cleansed me from my sin personal and generational, and released me and blessed me to be His servant to the people and nations that He calls me to. He showed me he is my Father and is always with me to hold me and embrace me. He also released me and blessed me to go and to do His work. My earthly parents previously had never released their blessing to me to do God¡¦s work, so I felt and experienced God the Father¡¦s blessing in the place of theirs. He spoke words of encouragement and blessing and physically released me to go and walk forward. He said, ¡§You can do it. I bless you, I will be with you. Walk ahead with the blessing and the love I freely give to you, I am proud of you and pleased with you.¡¨
Testimony #1: Wow the Heavenly Father¡¦s love is awesome. Before coming to PCS, I was not aware of the impact of generational sin had in my life. I praise God for teaching me to recognize and cut those sins off from my life, my family and my children. I now have the freedom to worship God knowing those sins are gone and not to be returning.
Also, I did not know how much I needed a mother and father¡¦s hug and affirmation. During PCS, I was able to experience that through my surrogate mother and father as I have not gotten from my earthly father and mother. I learned my Heavenly Father is all sufficient. Whatever my earthly parents cannot give me, the Heavenly Father can provide. Thank you to the entire PCS team for helping me to have a closer relationship with the Heavenly Father. Also to be a better husband to my wife, a better father to my children and a better son to my parents.
Testimony #2: I didn¡¦t realize that there were so many spiritual bondages from generational sins, character traits and sexual sins that were holding me back from being one with the Lord. Up until PCS, I identified myself as a strong Christian, especially for my age. But God revealed to me that He doesn¡¦t look at age, and only wishes to impart more onto the next generation. God really taught me what the spirit of forgiveness meant. There were so many hurts and curses placed upon my life by my parents, friends and classmates but God taught me to release them from the bondage that I had also placed on them. They have no more bondage over my life anymore and God is the only one that defines me. Also God taught me that sexual sins are the hardest thing to let go of. Years and years of sexual acts bound me to experiencing and knowing the true heart of God. There were spirits and demons that needed to be cast out and it was God truly showing me that he could bring ultimate satisfaction. Going back home, I vow my life is only to be used for God¡¦s kingdom. I¡¦ve always tried to expand God¡¦s Kingdom but now I know that it is only with the strength of our Heavenly Father.
Testimony #3: I can now declare I¡¦m a royal priest for my God, Father in heaven. He wants to be my father and he wants to be with me forever. How precious is that?? How precious is the cross. I¡¦m no longer bounded. I¡¦m no longer trapped. I¡¦m freed by the blood of Jesus Christ, my Lord, my King. Nothing can separate me from him. He has shown me throughout this past week that redemption, sanctification can only come through Him and nothing else. No more condemnations, no more guilt and shame; only the love that Jesus showed on the cross and the embrace of the Father and cleansing from the Holy Spirit. The Lord told me I don¡¦t need to stand by the strength of my own two feet. I was intimidated by the evil one. But God says he¡¦ll carry me and He did and does and will continue to do so until all eternity. Eternity is a long time, but God is who I want to be with forever. Through the Holy Spirit convictions, sanctifications process begins. It¡¦s a continual process.? It¡¦s by the transformations for the renewing of the mind, and giving ourselves to the Lord as a living sacrifice. That¡¦s just exciting. I¡¦m ready to spend eternity with the Lord. It starts now. Thank you, Jesus!!
Testimony #4: During this PCS, I know that my Lord Jesus has already restored my life back to His original plan. I am made in His image! I am precious in His sight. I no longer stand condemnation of myself because my Lord Jesus took all my sins, however displeasing and detestable they were, upon His own body. I used to think that I was a victim and my life was meaningless, but now I stand and proclaim that I am an over comer! I am made to worship and adore God. I stand victorious because Jesus is my Shield, my Protector, my Over comer. I have survived the trials of this life and I will continue to survive because Christ is my strength. I am holy and pure because He is Holy.
Testimony #5: I didn¡¦t understand the seriousness of PCS until I actually experienced it for myself. There was so much confessing and forgiveness. On Tuesday night, God told me that I had a lot of idol in my life and that my worship to Him was not genuine. I asked for forgiveness and for Him to cleanse my heart. I prayed to God for the gift of worship. God convicted me to take my service on the worship team to a new level. Worship is so crucial in my relationship with the Father. I think He has already blessed me with musical talent and who but God deserves all my praise. There are so many things that I don¡¦t understand about Him but His grace is something that continues to amaze me. And I feel that worship truly allows me to express my gratitude for Jesus dying on the cross. Somehow, God is able to speak to me through songs and lyrics and I received so much during PCS. ¡§Because of Your cross, my debt is paid. Because of Your blood, my sins are washed away. Now all of my life, I freely give. Because of Your love. Because of Your love, I live!¡¨ I also received much healing of my past childhood and of sexual immorality. And doing TWA daily, really opened my eyes to see what¡¦s on God¡¦s heart. His daily bread helps me get through the day. I pray that God will give me the strength and wisdom to live out what I learned from PCS.
Testimony #6: Confession. Repentance. Renouncing. Forgiveness. Words normally associated with the dealing of sin in one¡¦s life. However, the concepts of freedom and healing are not normally associated with these words. But until I took hold of confessing, repenting renouncing, receiving forgiveness (and forgiving others) of my sins,, the sins of my bloodline, etc. I couldn¡¦t honestly and in good conscience dub myself as God¡¦s ¡§Great Reclamation Project¡¨. To be able to do that WHILE having the Gospel truth firmly rooted in my mind, soul, spirit, and heart finally released me from the ¡§stuck parking brake¡¨ of life. A powerless believer is a believer in which truth, love of the Father, and the power of the Holy Spirit is rendered useless because sin has held the believer capture. Whether the sin is known or not known (i.e. generational sin). The morning TWA¡¦s, the times of confessions, repentance, and reclamation gave me some necessary breakthrough to allow the Holy Spirit to slip back into the crevices of my life (mind, body, spirit etc.) and take back what was and is rightfully God¡¦s. My new found freedom isn¡¦t simply ¡§freedom from¡¨, but now it¡¦s freedom to fully enjoy the company of God, the Father¡K.and enjoy what He has in store for my family and I.
Testimony #7: The Lord God has blessed me so much this week, more than what I expected!? I received so much healing, He revealed all the sins, bitterness, hurt that I¡¦ve been carrying around and didn¡¦t even realize that I¡¦ve buried. He continuously but gently, reminded me that I had to completely lay everything at the cross to receive complete healing. I was lying to myself and making excuses for my sinful ways, but the Lord told me that to be cleansed, I do not have any room for the enemy¡¦s lies and strongholds. He reminded me that He had died on the cross for us, that there is no condemnation as long as we confess, repent, and receive forgiveness. I have a renewed spirit that I am excited to ¡§share¡¨ with my own children, family and friends. Thank you, Lord Jesus, for You are our Almighty King, our Healer, Redeemer and sanctifier! Amen!
Testimony #8: I¡¦ve wanted to come voluntarily and therefore come with much expectation. I love to be at places where God¡¦s presence is there and PCS is definitely one of those. With God¡¦s grace, I am able to attend and arrive on time with no burden or worries left behind. And I truly believe this is the best time, as the course will ride across a New Year symbolizing a brand new start with all the old stuff gone. I am so blessed to able to really taste the gift of forgiveness throughout the course. We had lots of confession and cleansing being done and lost and broken relationship being restored. Jesus dying for us on the cross is all about forgiving. And if we can imitate Him in forgiving others the true blessing is on us. I was able to forgive my mother and received the mother¡¦s hug from Him and have our long lost relationship restored was so wonderful. A sense of total relief and heaviness came out of me and it felt GREAT!
Testimony #9: It¡¦s hard to sum up everything God did this week through PCS; there is so much good stuff!? He blessed me and loved me in ways beyond what I had hoped, prayed, or imagined. I feel the most clean and free and whole and at peace, at rest, than I have ever felt. He has built me up through restoring my speech during our times of declaring and praying His word. He has set me free through confession of and repentance of sins and renouncing of the kingdom of darkness that still had ground in my life. He empowered me to come against the enemy. Has helped me to receive His mothering and fathering qualities and my inheritance as His child and bride. Has renewed my mind and given me hope for the future. Abba has assured me that He has always been with me and that He will always be with me. Has shown me that the only way I can live the fullness of life that He has for me is to stay connected with Him every day and find my being in His embrace alone. PCS has equipped me to live this out, walk out His word, daily by letting me experience God for myself. Praise the Lord! Hallelujah!
Testimony #10: For all these years at SJCAC, I¡¦ve been longing to join PCS but not until now. I did attend Prayer Class, Refathering and Edenites and had some deliverances. But my life was still in pieces and even though I have been doing TWA seriously for many years and serving the Lord ¡§faithfully (sort of)¡¨, still not until now I feel myself a holy one piece (one spirit, one soul, and one body) sanctified and be ready to serve the Lord. And I praised the Lord for His perfect timing that I had gone through prayer class first to confess my deepest root of sexual sin, then Edenite the separate of my husband due to our closeness of sexual sins, and finally the deepest, deepest wound of the distance of my dad and the bitterness from my mom was healed at PCS. Praise the Lord, from now on I can truly be a beautiful, holy child, and beloved by the Lord and empowered to get ready every day to serve and live my life for my Lord!! And I thank the Lord for He never let go of me. I thank God for the pastors who have never give up on me until they see I can have the potential the Lord gives me the wholeness and fullness in Jesus Christ. Thank you, Lord!! :)
Testimony #1: I learned how important reading the Word can make in my life, including praying, worshiping, and spending time with the Lord. TWA will heal my heart and change my life. I realized that I really need to feel the Father¡¦s love and not man¡¦s approval and love. PCS opened my eyes to all the worldly strongholds that I do and practice. I need to transform my heart and look to Jesus first. The only one who can fix my and forgive me is Jesus. One of the evenings, I felt the Holy Spirit touch my right shoulder and felt His love. I started feeling disconnected and a wall around me the first night, then slowly I felt free to worship on the third and fourth days. The Lord is working inside me and I want more of Him. He highlighted areas of my life to work on and I¡¦m so thankful. Thank you PCS, for everyone¡¦s heart and God¡¦s love spoken to me. I see His presence strongly in everyone working here for the Lord¡XWow! So refreshing.
Testimony #2: The Lord touched my heart in so many ways. As we have been in a season of concentrations and surrender, PCS took me even deeper! The Word being taught not only as food, but identification and confession of sins has helped me to deal with areas of pride and self-centeredness that I know will continue to be rooted out as faithfulness in His Word goes on daily. Even when I thought areas of forgiveness had been dealt with the Lord peeled off more layers. Teaching on the areas of sexual sin and bondage were huge for me, even after having been to PCS 3 years ago for the first time. I¡¦m learning that freedom to trust God completely equals deeper and deeper healing and the ability through His powerful Word is what allows Him to use and work through me. Also that I don¡¦t have to compare myself to others; He is making me and shaping me into who He wants me to be! I believe this so much more today than just a few short years ago. I am unique and special to Him. Thank you to all of those who sacrificed to serve and give themselves at PCS.
Testimony #3: I have been through healing ministry before, but each time, the healing gets deeper and more thorough. Jesus has helped me reaffirm and reclaim old healing from before as well as breaking through in new areas. I was able to release and forgive my father for not letting me fail when I was younger. I have recognized the strongholds of fear and control that have been at work in my life. I have cut them off and destroyed their strongholds. The Holy Spirit now fills those places. I choose to trust God and allow him to control my life. I will continue to live out my freedom by eating the Word in TWA. God is GOOD!!!
Testimony #4: During these five days the Holy Spirit revealed to me many areas of sinful traits that I needed to repent of. During daily Time with Abba, to read God¡¦s Word only for me is so critical, to face up my own sins and strongholds and daily put myself under the cross, letting His Word cleanse me and His Holy Spirit to enlighten the darkness in me is so necessary in my growing to be more like Jesus. I sense in my spirit there is a new sense of obedience to God¡¦s Spirit and hunger for more of Him. Also there is more light shed on my husband¡¦s early death. And again I can say ¡§God is good¡¨ in allowing him to suffer great pains in his last year of earthly journey to purify him and make him complete, ready to face the Lord. The day before the Lord took him home, his eyes were closed and he said, ¡§Lord Jesus, let¡¦s go! please. I am ready.¡¨ The blessings at the communion are so significant that I¡¦m to build God¡¦s Kingdom, to be a vessel of His love and grace. May the Lord enable me to walk closely with Him moment by moment.
Testimony #5: This is my second PCS. I came here with a strong desire to be freed, healed and cleansed from sins and bondages that I¡¦ve been suffering and feeling entrapped in. The Lord is so faithful and good to give forgiveness, healing and deliverance. Deep roots of fear, blaming, and resentment have kept me captive. But through confession and the Lord¡¦s mighty hand, I experienced abundant freedom in these areas. I¡¦m learning to trust and rely on the Holy Spirit¡Xmy only hope for purity and healing. I believe my understanding and healing went deeper. The Holy Spirit gave me revelations and conviction that led to this cleansing and filled me with His love. Hallelujah for the blood of Jesus! My greatest desire is that the healing I¡¦ve received would not just be maintained, but grow deeper each day¡Xthat my family and me would walk each day consecrated unto the Lord, healed and empowered by the Holy Spirit. I believe PCS, as it is a school, gives essential tools to maintaining and growing in healing in our daily lives. I long to grow deeper in love and intimacy with my gentle and powerful, loving and merciful, gracious and just Abba each day. Praise the Lord!
Also, it was such a blessing to be here pregnant, and received God¡¦s blessings and love and words over our child. I pray this child experiences the power and love of the Holy Spirit, even now! It is wonderful to experience this healing and freedom in preparation for parenthood.
Testimony #6: Coming to PCS, I had a heavy, broken, hard, and depressed heart. I could feel the pain and got used to it. I was excited and scared to come to PCS and open up, but the blessing the first night told me that God had different plans for my life and walk. God broke down the barriers this week. The first night God told me that I was going to share my deepest and secret sins. What!? I was afraid going into the week with fear, but the Lord showed me this was a safe place. The last night was the best, as I was being brought out from the pain of my sexual sins. God gave me a new heart, softening it and giving it life. It was hard to sleep because of the joy awakened by God. I kept singing praises in my dreams. My soul could not stop rejoicing in the Lord for the new life He gave me. Now as I go back to church and school, I want to strengthen my brothers with the joy of the Lord.
Testimony #7: Praise the Lord for He showed me His grace and more importantly allowed me to know His love. He gave to me the gift of speaking out and asking, confessing so that I can hear my own sins, so the enemy can know that I am talking to my Lord, asking my Lord to protect me. I know that my Lord will destroy my pursuing enemies, if I ask. The inner hurts, the iniquities and soul ties were a surprise the Lord showed me. I discovered and received through Him that I had let these demons tied me into knots of pain, sorrow, shame and fakeness. Thanks be to the Lord, for his love and grace. Thanks be to Jesus, for dying for our sins and sitting by the Lord to save me! Thanks be to the Holy Spirit, to continue to brood on me. Thanks to TWA. May my passion for Christ multiple in His presence and that I will chase after Him on His path!
Testimony #8: When my friend told me about her experience at the PCS conference in CA, I was really encouraged. I did not plan to come with my husband since he hasn¡¦t been that open with these types of conferences, but to my surprise, he agreed to change our vacation plans so that we could both attend this PCS. We should have known at that point that God would have so much for us to receive.
I have attended another healing and deliverance ministry, but it had been many years ago. I felt as though the Lord had more to show me, now as a newly married woman. I had forgiven my mother of the past hurts, but I didn¡¦t realize how deep the wounds still are in my life. I was really blessed during the time of hugs and blessings from the surrogate parents. I cried and cried, but I felt such a sense of peace afterwards. When I forgave my mother for her trespasses against me, I was able to have compassion for my mother and was moved to intercede and pray for her. That was only because of the power and ability that came through the prophetic act of forgiveness with my surrogate ¡§mother¡¨. Ever since Monday night, I have felt so free and light. I didn¡¦t know that I was ¡§heavy¡¨ and laden-down until the yokes were broken off. I feel so free now and I have so much peace. I pray that I will not allow any of those past strongholds to return and it is my continued obedience and diligence to God. Thank you for giving me a taste of the Kingdom for the past 5 days.
Testimony #9: The first time I came to PCS, the Lord dealt with many of my own personal issues. This time, the Lord dealt with the generational iniquities and sins. From the moment I stepped into the hotel, from worship, TWA, and prayer, the Lord kept showing me that I needed to deal with the gods of my forefathers. TWA has made the Bible so much more real to me. The sins in the Word are also mine and my ancestors. I never saw that before and so now I can pray and ask for forgiveness on behalf of my family and cut off the generational iniquities so that they are no longer passed on to my children and future generations.
The other thing the Lord really showed me was that until I surrender myself¡Xevery aspect to Him, I will never become who I¡¦m meant to be. I can trust Him; He knows what is best for me and will never harm me. As I continue to lay down my life, He gives me the life I was meant to have. Glory to God! Thank you, Lord for what you are doing in my life. Thank you for PCS and all of your faithful servants. You are an awesome God! And thank you for challenging us to worship with all of our hearts! We need to get out of ourselves and our comfort zones and into His presence! Thank you!
Testimony #10: What did I receive from God through this PCS? More healing from things of the past; I¡¦m so grateful! And I was so blessed to know that this is a process not a one-time deal because I have gone through a time of inner healing once before and kind of felt guilty to go through it again until I realized that it¡¦s all a process on my journey with Jesus.
I was prayed for physical healing from a thyroid condition and went for 2 whole days without medicine and I believe that I will be fully healed in the future. I believe I have been blessed so that I can be a blessing to others. Thank you for being vessels of Jesus and the Father and the Holy Spirit.
How do I respond to His wonderful grace? With much gratefulness! My heart is overflowing. I¡¦ve felt freedom to dance before Him again and even to start declaring and praying out loud. For a long time I have felt rather bound in this area. I will continue to respond with thanksgiving and joy. Pressing in, knowing it¡¦s not about what I¡¦m feeling.
How God touches my heart. The Lord has touched my heart by surrounding me and enveloping me in the Holy Spirit, speaking out His Word of truth and letting me know I¡¦m not finished, that WE will go deeper together. Thank you again for being vessels! Shalom and love.
Testimony #1: Lord Jesus, thank you for these past 5 days¡Kthese last 9 years of being in my life. Lord thank you for not abandoning me and keeping your tight hand on me. The many years of running from you are gone. I now run toward you, Jesus. You have kept your grip on me. When I was violated, lost and in shame, You were always by my side. You heard every cry and wiped off every tear. When I ran around chasing things, gods, people of this world, You were watching me. You did not condemn me, You still loved me when I worshipped others beside you You still grieved but Your grace and mercy was still upon me. I and my family may have committed so many sins to you, but your grip was on us. Thank you, Lord for never forsaking me.
I am no longer under the generational curses of my family. I am free. You have forgiven me of all, ALL, my sins even the most deepest and secretive ones¡KI have confessed among your priests and you. I am no longer condemned from your kingdom. I am your bride, your princess. You have forgiven me and I am worthy, clean, pure and holy before you. I am yours and you are mine. My life is in your hands and I live for you, worshipping and surrendering to you. One thing I ask Lord, one thing I seek is to look upon the beauty of the Lord, to gaze upon your face and dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to gaze upon your beauty and look upon your presence in your Holy temple. I love you, Jesus, may I grow more in love with you. I look upon your cross and know that I am free. It is done. Thank you, precious Jesus. In your Holy name, Jesus, I pray. Amen.
Testimony #2: What will I be expecting? I only knew if I was a piece of dry land. Deep inside, I was crying out with silent guilt, condemning myself and fearful if God will leave me even though His Word says: ¡§I will not forsake you.¡¨ In these unexpected healing services, I specifically renounce all curses that come along with any impact and effect on behalf of my fathers and his ancestors and my mother and her ancestors. I reflected a lot on my role towards my daughter and asking God for all the damages done to her. I understood the effects, impacts and works of the enemy and their way of works; I now learnt, comprehended, renounced their works and cut any roots in my bloodline, praying, renouncing and confessing openly all my sins of my parents, ancestors, myself, up to3-4 generations, myself and my generation down to the 4th.
I now seriously will look closely into His Word¡Xespecially in the area of confession, it has been tough and difficult. But now I will live a life of confession to my husband, my daughter, my family and the Lord! I now began to comprehend why ¡§Time with Abba¡¨ is deeply important! I saw the commitment, operating of the Holy Spirit and the gifting through all these surrogate mothers and fathers motivated me about TWA. Nothing comes easy but it¡¦s all about loving Jesus, allowing the Holy Spirit and adoring my Heavenly Father. Indeed, David said in Psalms 23: ¡§The Lord is my Shepherd, I shall not want!¡¨ I reflected on my love for my husband and my daughter. I reflected on how Jesus had tucked me with confidence, love and grace. The word ¡§complete¡¨ kept ringing in my mind. All these years of crying out to Jesus in prayer ¡§to be complete in You¡¨¡Xthe Lord has opened a new chapter of my life in 2009. I am looking forward to serve Jesus in this new year 2009. Strangely, it hasn¡¦t been my desire for the last 6 years. I now am willing to stand behind my husband in prayer and to back him up in his ministry.
Testimony #3: God healed the hate in my heart from my father¡¦s absence throughout my childhood from working non-stop. When I received the father¡¦s hug from the minister, I felt the father¡¦s love filling my heart and filling the void. After forgiving my father for his absence, the bitterness I held towards him was released. I realized that I am God¡¦s son and that He gives me my name, gifting and calling!
God ministered to me in the area of insecurity in my life. When I was growing up, I had a horrible stuttering problem so much that when I was asked questions, sometimes I could not spit out the word without great difficulty. As a result, I felt extremely embarrassed and became very shy, scared to speak. Many people made fun of me for my stuttering and extreme shyness. During the healing of memories ministry time, I was able to unearth the buried memories of all people who made fun of me. I lifted up these hurts on the altar to God and He healed these memories and allowed me to forgive these people who hurt me. Now I do not carry these burdens or hurts with me and I can walk in freedom knowing that I am his son.
My wife was the one who strongly encouraged me to go to PCS. She could see many areas in my life that needed healing. I also realized that I was jeopardizing the marriage through focusing first on work and ministry than on strengthening our marriage relationship. God spoke to me in many ways regarding my marriage. The first time was in the day 2 TWA from Micah when he warned me against dealing treacherously with the wife of my youth and that he hates divorce. Secondly, Lillian spoke on the father¡¦s role for the wife particularly after she delivers a child, that his function is to protect, encourage, and cherish the mother so that she can love the child. God convicted that I had not done that with our first child and that I need to do that with our coming second child. That my primary role is to love, cherish and nurture her.
God opened my eyes to doing TWA in a new way¡Xthrough going through 4 passages at the same time and to pray through God¡¦s character, confession, and claiming His promises. My wife has been asking me to do TWA with her so now I would like to start this new habit of doing TWA together with her so we may grow together with God. Praise God!
Testimony #4: Praise the Lord! I thank Him for delivering me out of darkness: inner hurts and habitual sins. Through TWA my being is grounded to the word of life, and well being is transforming by the Holy Spirit. Now I am able to love my earthly father truly and able to forgive him and forget my past hurts. I no longer dwell on my self-hatred and listen to the lies of my old-self and the enemy. I believe God heals me of my speech problem, god is repairing this character flaw, I will not be afraid of speaking or sharing in front of people. I will not be silent and passive. The priest declared and asked God for releasing my mouth with words of encouragement, words of peace, words of reconciliation, words of kindness. I long to be right with God in my thought, my soul, my body. This PCS helped me tremendously to practice the fear of God, taught me to be obedient to God¡¦s will. It¡¦s an eye opening to my soul that I need God¡¦s presence in my life all the time. I can say I will not be confused or reasoned with God¡¦s will. Just trust and obey His Word. I¡¦m not walking wounded anymore. I¡¦m brand new in Christ. Hallelujah!
Testimony #5: God healed my inner wounds in early years¡XI confessed my sins of unbelief and self-condemnation. I have confessed the same sins many times, but the unbelief in me told me my sins are not really forgiven. I confessed and brought it to the Lord. I believe that now I am forgiven and God has set me free completely. I know that I am different. God sees me as holy and precious bride to Him. The fear left me. The condemnation left me and the anger toward myself is gone too. I no longer worry about how people look at me because I know I am new before God.
I used to have split mind, part of my soul seems like not with me. Last night, I confessed my sins and cut unhealthy soul ties with my past.? I know that I am whole now, my soul is complete. I know that through this PCS, God really call me to become an overcomer and to believe! Praise the name of Jesus!
Testimony #6: So much blessing. On Day 1, I received a blessing from the Lord, which already made me feel by coming here is all worth it. It is OK at home. God¡¦s blessing through group leaders was an affirmation of His calling, showed His rejoice and acceptance in me. God called me an intercessor through the mouth of a leader who had never met me before or knew nothing about me. I received so much love and encouragement through that blessing alone. Thank you God!
I had already forgiven my parents for not being there for me before I attended PCS. Being able to get a physical hug from mother and father here released much of the inner hurt. I verbally said, ¡§Yes, I forgive you¡¨ to the priest. The last evening had truly purified me. I feel like a brand new person being in God¡¦s presence. Thank you all the ministers in every way! God bless you! Before I came to PCS, I thought I would really look forward to Friday, the day of going home. But I actually don¡¦t want to leave now, since the Lord¡¦s presence is so strong here.
Testimony #7: This is my third PCS attendance and at first I had much doubt about the repetition. As I prepared to come, questions came up within me, ¡§I thought I was already healed, wasn¡¦t I?¡¨ God really showed me His power regardless of my human doubt, through bringing me to the same setting, same place, same season, I¡¦m reminded of how much He¡¦s changed me and the circumstances around me. I truly had a healing and reversal of ¡§doubt¡¨!
I wrote a song about TWA last year, but was only able to sustain for roughly half a year before submitting to laziness and excuses of not reading the Word of God. This year I intentionally try to imagine myself doing the 6:55am TWA¡¦s as if I were at home, and I¡¦m once again dedicated to daily read the precious words of God. I thank God for bringing me here.
Testimony #8: On the first of the PCS session, the clinic servants prayed that Abba would lift a heavy burden off me. They asked me to allow God to go deep in my heart. Through their prayer, I saw a cloud of darkness behind me. I was very scared and then I saw Abba in front of me to pull me away from the cloud. During worship in the second day, God showed me a picture when I was born. The nurse held me to show my father and congratulated him to have a girl. My father was disappointed and said that, ¡§this is not my child. My child is a boy.¡¨ This picture showed up a few years ago. I was always asking Jesus to come into this picture. However, I never really saw Jesus in this picture. I didn¡¦t know why. I asked again during the worship
I felt that someone on my left side said to me to look at him. I knew that was Abba Father. He told me that He was always there but I was too focused on staring at my earthly father¡¦s back, therefore, I never knew that Abba was there from the beginning. At that moment, I broke down totally. I turned my face and looked at Abba. Throughout the time in PCS, He just kept on telling me He was my father and He always loves me. I was looking at the face of the baby girl. I was surprised to see that her face was like a stone. I heard that Abba told me to only look at Him and let go of my earthly dad. I heard that Abba told me to release my earthly dad to Him. He kept on telling me I was His daughter. I finally saw the baby cry very hard and eventually calm down. It was like a big burden lift up from my heart. At the end, I saw that Abba was trying to make me smile by playing with my cheek and tummy in that picture.
Testimony #9: God has revealed to me a variety of sins that I have committed in the past and forgotten. Some were tradition, things regularly done at home or in the environment I lived in. Others are knowingly wrong but since I did not know Him, I did it anyway to seek relief and to yearn for love and comfort. God has spoken to me that I needed to present these sins in front of Him and to dig the roots of these sins, recognizing how much it hurt God and how angry He was because of me doing these things. God has spared me in many occasions and giving me the opportunity to return to Him and He also spoke to me what ¡§living sacrifices¡¨ is and how to say ¡§no¡¨ to temptation. I realized that some of the generational sins that passed down to me and how I could be affected even though I wasn¡¦t directly involved. God¡¦s power is so great that He can cure them also. I did repentance for my parents and ancestors and forgave them. Now I can walk in the light and not feel ashamed. I prayed to continue this wonderful relationship with God through Time with Abba. Thank you PCS. Thank you God!
Testimony #10: Before coming to this PCS, I was full of fear and anxious about the future because I knew I was far away from God. I felt like I¡¦ve run too far from him to a point that I no longer have the confidence to believe that He would want me back. By His grace and mercy, I was able to make the most courageous decision in my life to confess my sexual sins before Him, people, and before a priest. My Father has also healed and delivered me from many of my past wounds. When I cried out for my family, I no longer stay in the mode of hopelessness and I know that all my cries for my family will make a difference in my family.
Testimony #11: I knew coming to the PCS that I needed deep healing in my life. Even as I was doing the pre-reading for the course, God and the Holy Spirit were bringing up memories that needed healing. I have been desperate for breakthrough in many areas of my life, specifically relational, and being able to release forgiveness to my mother and father. I received that breakthrough from the generational sins and also receiving the father and mother¡¦s hugs. As I received the mother¡¦s hug, my ¡§mom¡¨ asked for forgiveness. And I forgave her and It was a wonderful release and confirmation that I can now freely receive the Abba Father¡¦s love and nurturing. I no longer hold any unforgiveness or bitterness against my earthly parents. God is my father and mother. He delights in me. I look forward to TWA, so I can be ¡§reparented¡¨ by Him and become everything that He has created me to be.
Testimony #12: I just want to praise the Lord for these last 5 days. It has been such a retreat and a treat for my husband and I. We truly rested in the Lord these past 5 days. The Lord touched me in a deeper level this second time. We love Him so much and we are devoted to serve only Him for all the days of our lives. We submit our lives to serve Him. We love you Lord so much!
Testimony #13: Thank you God for letting me attend this conference. I am purified, washed up, and restored. All my guilt, shame, pains and hurts that has been adding up in my life in the past years are being removed and covered. By the blood of Jesus, I felt so clean and refreshed. Being lifted up once again and am able to move forward in this new Year of 2009. By faith I hold onto the promise God has for me and will wait patiently for God¡¦s plan for me to unveil. I demolished strongholds and I know Satan will have no power on me to capture me once again for I am attached to the Lord. I will learn to walk in the fear of the Lord and in the presence of the Lord all the time. Thank you Jesus. Praise Him, Hallelujah!
Testimony #14: God renewed my life through prayer of confession and repentance. He washed over me with His water and fire. He is wonderful. He purified me and separate me apart again for His kingdom. I am purified again and again, through and through. God is so good, so good, so good that words cannot describe. He makes me a new person again. He healed my childhood wounds and cleansed my sin of adultery to other things of this world. I love you Father, I love you Abba. He is a Healer. He is my Savior. He is my King, my Father of love.
Testimony #15: There are several things I received during this PCS. First, is His healing power. The session when we asked for the filling of the Holy Spirit, I also asked for His healing over my right arm. It has been hurting for almost a year, painfully hurting. As we were praying, I can feel the soreness and tension being released. As of now, I can definitely say that it has significantly improved. I can write or copy the Bible passages without pain. Before, I used to highlight directly on my Bible the sins, God¡¦s character and promises during TWA. Now I can copy God¡¦s words joyfully again. Second, is His ever present presence. He has given me much peace and assurance that He is with me during this process of restoring my being and moving toward well-being. During Wednesday¡¦s session (night) as we were praying for our image to be restored, I felt God holding my right arm, assuring me that He is my uplifter, my pillar of support and He will walk with me. I thought it was a pastor or prayer minister going around to minister, but they were just standing in the back. It was a peaceful and reassurance experience that God will walk with me. It gives me great confidence to live my life.
Testimony #1: Hi Pastors Poon, Just wanted to give you a testimony of my husband coming to the Lord while I was at PCS. He answered my most wanted prayer. My husband felt convicted and "didn't know why", but one night he decided to read the Bible. He fell asleep and when he awoke, he said the prayer of salvation. Praise God!!
Testimony #2: Hi! I was at PCS this past April. I justed to let you know that I received healing from my migraines and I have not had one migraine since the healing! Praise God! Peace to you, Irene
Testimony #1: I see clearly like never before the infiltration of ancient Asian demonic doctrine, beliefs and idolatry into the western culture. I held the belief that the yoga that I practiced could be redeemed and used by the Lord, by the kingdom. I now understand that when a practice is birthed out of worshipping of idols¡Kit cannot be redeemed. It is from the devil. I was also unaware of the history and foundation for Chiropractic practice. I have found that it is critical to know the history behind any practice that goes beyond a physical application and moves into an energy force. We must all be aware and alert otherwise the enemy will overtake us. This awakening is me of these deeply hidden deceptions in my culture, and how I had allowed them into my being, has been essential as I confess, repent, evict these spirits and invite the Holy Spirit in their place. What freedom!? During this PCS, I have been physically healed. God has re-aligned my spine, shoulders, hips, knees and feet. I was all out of whack. During this PCS, I have been spiritually healed and cleansed. The TWA will be my anchor to what God has done and how he has met me here. I pledge to do it daily. Thank you Lord!
Testimony #2: Coming here to PCS, I knew that I had/have so much junk in my life. I wanted God to take it all and heal it all at PCS. He did! It started with the filling of the Holy Spirit. Wow, that was such an awesome experience. I felt the warmth of the Holy Spirit. He healed my migraines during one of our group sessions. I had no idea how much of my migraines were tied to generational sins of idol worship and ancestral worship. I¡¦m freed from my generational sins! Receiving the Father¡¦s hug was powerful, so powerful. ?I was able to release all my hurt and receive the Father¡¦s love¡Kfathering qualities. I though the healing process was going to b so painful, but God knew the right dose of intensity and still cleansed me from all of my confessed sins, delivered me, and healed me. There is lightness within me. I know more of the power of the Holy Spirit. Oh, I almost forgot, I kicked out, in the name of Jesus, the spirit of fear. The spirit of fear had been one of my major strongholds. It¡¦s been kicked out¡Kout, out, out. Praise the Lord!
Testimony #3: Through this PCS I learned how to pray the Bible. For years, my time with the Lord has been dry. My prayers were short. I only asked God to help me when I was sick or I want something. And I thanked Him when He answered my prayers. That was all: ¡§Please help me¡K¡¨ and ¡§Thanks God¡¨. After I¡¦ve learned how to do TWA, I feel my time with God now is so precious. He has opened my eyes; His word is like bread/food for my soul. I can praise Him, confess to Him, and claim His promises. I have a new life in Christ for now. Later I will have an eternal life with God. Praise the Lord.
Testimony #4: The Lord is so awesome in these five days during PCS. I came as a weary, weighed down person with sorrow and grief inside me and physical pain in my body. The songs during the worship touched me with the goodness of Father God, faithfulness of Him, always made me cry at the first 2 days. After the deliverance prayer from cultural and generational sins, the shoulder pains, back pains and headaches were gone. The Lord brought up my relational sins during that prayer, such as unforgiveness, bitterness, hatred, resentment, not submitting to authority. After the memory healing, I can feel the love of Abba Father, His everlasting arm is always here to support me; He stretched out His hands to pull me out of the trouble and put me on the rock. He dressed me with the robe, put jewels on me, necklace around my neck, crown on my head, so that I can be called the daughter of God, the royal princess of the Abba Father. I am accepted and have the privilege to dance with Him. During the breaking of the strongholds, I was released from the dark power of sexual sin of fantasy, sexual perversion, etc. He removed the shame of being molested by my big brother at age of 8. He washed me clean and healed my disease of menstrual pain. Thank God, glory to His mighty name. I am God¡¦s child and for His use-- this body, soul and spirit. My Holy Spirit controls every part of me. I¡¦ll live a holy life before Him.
Testimony #5: The thing I struggle with the most is my purpose in life. I have anxiety and fear that comes over me so much in my life. The anxiety and fear seemed to intensify this week. The Lord not only set me free from the anxiety and fear but also showed me I need to learn to battle it when it come on me and not cower back. On Wednesday during the mother/father session, the Lord released me into my true purpose and set me free from the expectations, anxieties and criticalness from my mother. I was released to be in the Lord and released to my true identity! The anxiety and critical spirit was also broken. And so even as the week began to come to an end, I could not take hold of those promises and areas I have been set free! And during the blessing, the Lord set me free! The Lord also led me to confess the walls, barriers and facades I put up rejecting His promises! He has shown me and confirmed that I need to BE in Him and walk forward in His promises and purposes for me.
Testimony #6: The Lord is breaking down the pride, the need to control. I know it¡¦s an ongoing process.? I am no longer called ¡§much afraid.¡¨ The Lord has told me to be strong and courageous¡Xvery courageous. He will go with me wherever I go. I need to stay close to hear His voice and walk in His Spirit. It is never because of my merit but because of His grace. There is no place for pride. I choose to serve Him and not myself. He continues to impress o me reliance on Him in serving others. Prayer. Prayer for family, church, friends, nations¡Xthat the world might know freedom in Christ through salvation. And to keep short accounts¡Xnot give the enemy a foothold. To be honest about my sins with God and others. The healing is for the nations, not only me. I am so grateful for your obedience to the Lord in making the church aware of God¡¦s holiness and the areas where we have merged with the enemy¡Kand that there is hope and healing in repentance. Thank you. It is a blessing to experience the Word lived out.
Testimony #7: I came to PCS with fear¡Xfear of the unknown, fear of what God would do, fear of what the enemy would do, fear of my response, or even lack of response, fear of leaving my children for the 5 days. I did not know what even to ask of Him¡Xso full of fear and sin. I only, therefore, asked Him to break me, to give me tears which I¡¦ve not had for 12 years, and asked Him to be real to me¡Xnot just a vague loving entity but a God I could love and from whom I would be able to receive love. On Monday night¡¦s blessing, I was blessed to know that He is safe¡Xthat this is a safe place that every void in my life will be exchanged for His presence.
I learned I accepted that Jesus desires for me to be free of guilt and self-condemnation. He, Jesus, told me, ¡§Be still.¡¨ Quit striving and fretting¡Xfirst be still in his presence and drink in, bask in, His love. Wow! So freeing! Jesus showed me, proved to me that He is trustworthy and He is true. He will hold me in His arms of compassion and He will not let me go. He whispered a new name to me. He has named me Gracious.
I was healed of hurts from my childhood¡XI am free from shame and embarrassment. I forgave. I forgave a lot of people. Jesus turned my thinking from, ¡§they should ask for my forgiveness!¡¨ to giving it, offering it to them in His power¡Xit is only in His power, as my frailty could not do it without His grace. I was healed and delivered of sins where I lost pieces of my very soul. In His mercy and grace, He has restored ¡§me¡¨ to myself and today I woke a new woman in Him¡Xfeeling, being more ¡§together¡¨ than I have in many years. Jesus gave me tears. Then more tears. And then some more tears. And it was good!! Praise God! I receive His love and I give Him mine.
Testimony #8: I thank God for giving me the gift of time to come to PCS and letting me rest and recharge by replacing the ¡§junks¡¨ with the Holy Spirit blessings. I¡¦m healed and make a covenant with God to live a Christ-centered life from now on. God showed me a vision of how to integrate my callings and spiritual gifts for His kingdom and for His glory.
I¡¦ve deepened my relationship with God with TWA as well as the impartation of the Holy Spirit. I sense the cleansing in me and He transformed my desire into His. I¡¦ll step up, let go, and be of blessings to others through loving them and serving them. I¡¦m also grateful for ¡§re-fathering¡¨ and the affirmation of ¡§fatherly and motherly¡¨ quality in me. I now understand the ¡§truth¡¨ from TWA and washed it over my lies. I also realize the real ¡§manhood¡¨ now, what it means to be a spiritual leader who¡¦s humble and serve others.
I pray that God will heal my family (parents and siblings) and bring them to Christ (about 50% are Christians) and through the blood of Jesus, that my generational sins are confessed, cleansed and we can truly live a God-centered life as brothers and sisters in Christ. I¡¦m grateful and appreciate PCS¡Xthe dedication of staff and the caring to heal and the support to live a life that Abba blessed us with. Thank you Abba!
Testimony #9: The PCS teachings of Pastors Abraham and Lillian Poon. The spiritual lessons of PCS are all: 1. Biblical-God¡¦s written record. 2. Historical-have been recorded. 3. Original-content remains the same. 4. Factual-recorded in all cultures and currently active. 5. There is nothing new-the Poons are only bringing history, facts, to present day! They do not direct theology to direct people to an emotional experience. They direct people to God (through the Holy Spirit, for a renewed relationship). They choose to expose their own heritage to show our deep ancestral slide into the dark side of the occult and the demonic.
To think that there is anything that we¡¦re separated from here in the US is to admit that we¡¦re ignorant¡Xlacking knowledge¡Xone thing that the US has huge pride over is knowledge! Education is where we will fall and fail when we shut our eyes and select ¡§whose voice we will give credit¡¨. We thank PCS for its restorative work in our marriage and in each other both from Beulah Beach and Cleveland. God bless the work, God¡¦s work that the Poons have devoted their lives to.
Testimony #1: Praise God! I came to PCS with God far from my heart. Even though I was ministering and mentoring others, I was still struggling with personal sin and I wondered why I had no intimacy with God. Through the teachings and healing I received during my time here, God revealed to me the significance of the Holy Spirit and how my life was still held in bondage to the past. Now I feel completely redeemed through the blood of Jesus and know that he came to break all bonds and to remove all shame. I want to thank God for blessing the servants of PCS and revealing profoundly to them His ways so that I could be healed. Now I can go confidently in the Holy Spirit and be assured of God's presence with me in my attempts to serve Him, without which I have surely failed.
Testimony #2: My loving Father, you are Almighty and my Eternal Father. You knew everything before I asked. I came to PCS to seek answers to what I should do with my life. I came to find answers I have all these years. You have answered me completely through the Holy Spirit. Instead of finding myself, I found You! You have taken away my hurts-all my tears of past hurts-You, Abba, have wiped clean. Only you could have take away my sins by dying for me. I know you love me now more than ever. I am your son. I love you and you will me in every way. I no longer need the world. I have you. My tears now are of joy because I know and feel that I am a sinner and unworthy in Your presence and yet You still love me. Your grace is more than the wealth and gold. I have no more doubts. I love you Abba.
Testimony #3: I received deliverance and healing frommy past. I experienced freedom and joy and peace from releasing my generational curses and sins. I forgave my dad and mom for their sins against me. I receive by faith the perfect love, acceptance, affirmation, calling, manhood and purpose from my heavenly Father. I renounced and confessed by own personal sins of idolatry, murder, hatred, bitterness, anger, sexual immorality and deceit. I kicked out the spirits and demons tormenting me, reclaimed my soul and claimed my soul and the healed spaces for the Holy Spirit. I received tremendous blessings of joy with God in TWA. I offer my life as a living sacrifice to Him. I cannot live without the grace of Jesus and the fellowship of the Holy Spirit. I will endeavor to resist the devil, crucify the flesh, sanctify my soul, to live the holy life that I've been called to and is my right and inheritance. I am free and will overcome by the power and grace of God.
Testimony #4: In the past 5 days, my life is changed by God's healing and love. On day 1, I did not fully open my heart to God and people, until I received the blessing from my group leaders. I knew God's word passed their mouth and touched my heart so deeply. On day 2, I received the Holy Spirit for the first time. I cried out and coughed at the same time and the Qi demon and other demons were cast out from my body. I felt so happy and free like a bird. On day 3, I experienced the inner healing from my heavenly Father. The Holy Spirit helped me review all the memories deep in my mind. The old hurts and wounds came out and were reviewed. I was able to forgive all of them by the strength my God gave to me. Praise the Lord! The last two days, I continued to be under God's healing. I also realized some sins I made in my past. I confessed to my Lord and asked for his forgiveness and protection. I felt I am so happy and clean. The peace my God gives to me is so precious. I am only his daughter now. Thank you Abba! Thank you PCS.
Testimony #5: I received the blessing of the certainty of my salvation based on Christ's resurrection on the cross. When it comes down to it, my initial faith was grown on rocky soil. Too many years of Christian immaturity and inability to get out of it and growing and trusting in God. So...my head and heart have been connected to pray and worship to have a deeper life with Jesus Christ and I am now certain and convicted that I will grow in Christ. The Holy Spirit has put the word of thirst and necessity for God's word in my walk. I've been so amazed at how God has broken through my complacency. He has delivered me from the Qi evil spirit, breaking through years of moxibustion treatments, qi gong (practiced on me), guilt from previous alcohol and drug abuse (even after I accepted Christ!), generational iniquities (family participation in leadership roles in Chinese family associations), the generation curses of anxiety, rages of anger and unforgiveness. Forgiving my mother is a tremendous healing for me, especially since I saw alot of her controlling (but loving) anger on me and in my daughter. God has broken through my unbelief. Through the blood of Christ, I am delivered, healed, and saved. Forevermore, I will have a deeper life in Him.
Testimony #6: Before I came to this PCS, I was at the downturn of my spiritual life. Knowing that there were many sins and hurts I needed to deal with, I longed for a revival, and it can only happen where there is a strong and intimate relationship established with the Lord. During this PCS, what I enjoyed the most was Time with Abba and soaking in the presence of the Holy Spirit. As I was confessing my sins to the Lord, I felt that I was renewed by the Lord and my loved ones as well. Joy and confidence were what I received from the Lord this time. I pray that I can spread this blessing to people around me and to the kids at LSV.
Testimony #7: PCS pointed me back to the Giver of life and the ultimate Healer-Jesus Christ. As I was ushered into God's presence and felt showered and comforted by the Holy Spirit all week long. He prompted me to confess my sins, many have been "secret" sins and ones I haven't felt convicted of prior to PCS. He prompted me to confess my sins of reading horror books, watching horror moveis in my teenage years, a stronghold and fear of the dark, spirits I have to this day. He showed me through TWA that God is the creator of the dark night. He has dominion over the darkness! He has also convicted me to forgive my father and let go of my resentfulness toward him for his lack of love. I received such a warm loving hug from the surrogate father and it was just what my soul needed for healing. I know it doesn't end here. PCS is just the beginning of a restorartion journey of intimacy with the Father. I'm now equipped to keep confessing my sins, to exercise my spiritual authority to command evil spirits/attachments and to welcome the Holy Spirit to dwell in me. Thank you Lord Jesus for your healing work. Thank you PCS clinic servants and the Poons for being used by God to equip others.
Testimony #8: This PCS conference has been more than I ever imagined. For the first time in over 38 years I feel FREE. I came to this conference with tremendous anger-particularly towards my biological father-my dad. Through the breaking of the generational curses in my bloodline, I have forgiven my dad and released all my anger to the cross at Jesus Christ. I have been a Christian for almost 20 years and for the first time I feel free at the generational and personal sins and curses that have haunted me all these years even when I knew I was saved in Christ. I thank my Lord Jesus Christ, in the power of the Holy Spirit--all glory to the Father for bringing me here.
Testimony #9: I've been longing for love, but my parents never give me the love I long for. I feel that I'm not wanted as I was not a boy they wished for. I always feel that I was not worthy, not loveable, not beautiful, not attractive-that no one would really love me. But God revealed to me that I am his precious princess and I am beautiful, as I was made in his image. I don't need to look for a man to love me, as He is my lover, my protector, my shelter. His love can fulfill all the emptiness in my heart. His grace shines upon me and shines through the darkness of my heart. He showed me that I've been rejecting myself because of Satan's lie. It's not true that I am unwanted. My heavenly Father, Abba, wants me and loves me. He is my healer and has healed me through PCS. I know that God will keep healing me. It's just a start. He plants a seed in my heart and it will grow. May God's love attract me and I'll follow Him wherever he wants me to go. Amen.
Testimony #10: I experienced God's deliverance through the casting out of all the evil spirits that had lived within me for a long time. Therefore I was able to receive inner healing for all hurts in the past from my family and past generations. I made a breakthrough by confessing and receiving the forgiveness for my sins, especially sexual sins, which have bondaged me for many years. I know for sure that from this point of time, I will have a much deeper life and the strongholds that were holding me up from receiving the Holy Spirit have now been broken down by the blood of the Lamb. I will now by Faith live a life of prayer and praise to the risen King, as He commanded us to never cease praying and "Let everything that has breath praise the Lord!"
More testimonies to come!!
Testimony #1: I came to PCS with not much to expect, maybe a time to rest upon the Lord and some minor healings to be dealt with. I thought I was overall pretty okay. The second day I remembered that the presence of the Holy Spirit was so eminent. I felt 'Wow' in my heart. Little did I realize that there were more and more to come. The Holy Spirit guided me back to generations seeing the idol worship and the sins that they might have committed, making me realize and understand some of their behaviors affecting my parents and me. Even some of the cultic practices that I've never heard of before, the Holy Spirit showed me and led me to confess for my ancestors. I was relieved to be able to renounce all the ties and had a fresh start in the Lord. Then the mom and dad hugs both relieved my hurts and addressed my longings deep down that I could not get from my earthly parents. Even though during which for a moment the oppressive spirit made me feel that I betrayed my parents, the Holy Spirit showed me that it's really the Father who wanted to bless me and to feel His love, and it's not anything the spiritual dad or mom could have done themselves. Also, the deliverance of the sexual sins gave me the affirmation and relief in Him. Out the many sessions, the one that touched me the most was the healing of memories. The many hurts and wrongs were displayed in front of me so vividly. I felt the Holy Spirit so very gently touched my heart and my wounds. No condemnation but tremendous outpour of His love. I was given a chance to confess, to forgive, and to be filled with the Holy Spirit, to be given the strength and love to move forward. People being held captives in my hearts were set free. I was freed as well. Not only the past I was freed, the Holy Spirit also showed me the things that I need to confess to my kids after the conference. I feel so much closer to the Lord, and I am so blessed. There is so much peace and warmth in my heart once again. Thank God. He is so good. All glory and honor to Him.
Testimony #2: I praise God for the new transformation of my emotional, physical and spiritual being after attending the PCS. I praise God for healing me from past experiences and hurts and I was able to be delivered from emotional pain. I praise God for his word and assurance of who I am in Him. I am his beautiful daughter and loved by Him after I had gone through confession, renouncement of my past curses, proclaiming God's promises. I praise God for knowing I have a Christian community for support. I have been praising God since I came back to people. I am more aware of demonic activities and be on alert of the spiritual activities. I am getting ready to go to the mission field in Cambodia in a few months. I thank God for my experience. I will seek people in Cambodia to be my prayer and support community so that we can be in prayer together. Keep me in your prayers. I appreciate it very much. I thank you for putting this school together. Keep serving Him and spreading others who might need healing.
Testimony #3: Lord, thank you so much for your healing and help. I learned the power of God and the healing of forgiveness. Lord, I believe there was much bitterness in me; however, you have set me free. You told me to forgive, even myself. You have healed me and taken away my bad memories, my sadness and my bitterness. I know healing is a life-long process. I will obey your word and lay my burden before you. Thank you my dear Jesus.
Testimony #4: I praise the Lord that I had cast away the sin of self-condemnation and the condemnation from others, and that all the inner vows I had made to myself had no power over me. While hugging the surrogate father, I was revealed that I still had resentment toward my father because he spent too much time in working, and kept his money too tight, ¡K etc. Besides, I was revealed that I had resentment toward my mom. The fact that I was conceived before my parents got married, what's worse was my mom was not sure if she loved my father. I believe the reason why they got married was because they already had me. Deep inside of me, I had rage, and a sense of being condemned and unwanted. While hugging the surrogate mother, I heard her saying something, then I cried. Now, I feel that the feelings of being unwanted and condemned are totally gone. I praise the Lord for giving me the power of forgiveness.
Testimony #1: In coming to Empowerment Camp, I received from God more than I've ever received before, through His unfailing love and forgiveness. All my life, I've had the concept that God loved us all, but not in that intimate way. I was thinking more along the lines of how a king loves his people because he is their ruler. But in this retreat, He made me understand completely and fully, that He cares for me , more than anyone else is capable to do so.
My father passed away two years ago, and at that time, I also gained something in addition to the loss -- I acquired a mask to hide myself. Now, when I wonder how that ended up to be, I realized that it was a mask because even though I acted the same, as before, I had really changed drastically inside, and was no longer who I was before. I hid successfully for 2 whole years, and was getting used to it until this week. I got the image that I was an Eskimo in an igloo, and a block of ice had fallen away (my father). I had long since run out of the woods and was cold, when God stood outside and said, ¡§I have another block of ice that I carved out for your hole in your igloo¡¨. But I refused to listen and only patched up my entrance with more snow. When friends come by, I'd yell out in a nice voice of how well I was doing, but I was still blocking God out. On the third night of camp, God revealed this to me, that I did have that mask yet was so stubborn and unwilling to let it go; to let Jesus into my igloo to help me out. After breaking down to God, He said to me, ¡§Girl you've patched up your entrance¡Kbut if you're willing to start digging it away from your side, then I promise I'll help you dig from the outside.
I experienced such a deep love from God then, that He never ever gave up no matter how stubborn I was. I am so thankful that even though I am an undeserving twit, God cares for me. This understanding in my heart, not only my mind, is making me let go of the walls in my heart, and I feel so great as God is knocking all my barriers down. I've been able to praise God with so much joy in my heart now that I feel like I could do it forever, and look forward to when I will praise God forever. If heaven had time, then I would be praising my Father 24/7.
Testimony #2: Empowerment Camp made me realize that I needed to be closer to God and praise Him more. I knew pretty much what to expect. I mean, this is a church camp, so we will praise God, but I didn't know it was going to be so intense. Usually, on Sundays, I listen to half an hour sermons, but at Empowerment Camp, there were about 4 sermons that were two to three hours long each. This camp was very powerful and changing for me, and I felt that God touched everyone's heart at the camp too. I like how it was in the woods, but I actually didn't know that, so I didn't bring shoes, instead, I brought flip-flops. Being in a sort of seclusion somehow made it easier to open up to God. I thank God for giving me and everyone at camp an opportunity to let go of inner hurts and to give glory to God.
The Lord showed me I¡¦m still angry about my stepdad and need to pray for him. Also, TWA was great! I really learned a lot! And was truly blessed! But it was very hard at times as well. I thank God I was able to come.
God had been giving me a desire for deeper intimacy with Him, but there was always a wall. I had been to PCS once before, but still had this block. During the life story time, God brought me to mind people who I had used in the place of God as substitutes for intimacy with God. I truly received the Mother and Father¡¦s love. I had been struggling with urinary tract infections, and God had revealed to me that this was the result of past sexual sin. I confessed them one by one and asked Jesus to cut them off. I know that I have been healed¡Xboth of my sins and its hold on me, as well as of my UTIs.
I came hungry but determined that I would not try to make anything happen¡Xthat everything had to come from God. In fact, I almost went in the opposite direction. But God was faithful. The very first morning in TWA He showed me I need to be broken--my heart needs to be broken and then He broke it as clinic servants prayed for me later that day. One of them sensed I needed to turn my heart over to Jesus and asked me to. I did and God worked. He showed me areas of my life that I would have never dreamed were problems. He continued to speak to me in TWA and I am looking forward to what He is going to do in my life.
Going to PCS I knew exactly what I needed to be healed from, but I didn¡¦t want to, didn¡¦t think I was ready to fell and be healed. I had a lot of walls up around my heart and my mind that prevented me from feeling and instead I was really practical about things.
God broke down those walls and allowed me to finally begin healing from my dad¡¦s death. He revealed to me that I needed to be able to feel, to be healed and to be loved by Him in order to care for and heal and love others as a doctor.
So thank God, You¡¦re amazing and my resting place.
One word: FREEDOM! Praise God! Freedom from sin, from my burdens, from my anxieties, from my barriers and walls¡K and ¡§Melting like butter¡¨¡KLillian Poon The softening of my heart. Filling me with the Holy Spirit so I can give to others of myself without being drained.
. . . PCS made me realize that inner healing with deliverance as ministered by leaders using all the gifts of the Spirit is the only effective manner of achieving full victory in Jesus. I started over and worked on everything I had gone through in my life from items I knew I had victory in to those I was still struggling with. I feel, for the first time in my life, a peace deep within me. I have not become, what I always feared, a "holy roller" but am in fact basically the same person I was in personality and temperament. What I have gained though is an understanding that the Spirit filled life is possible, effective, and necessary not only in ministering to my own needs but to the needs of others. PCS also provided a structure and the tools to use to minister to the body of Christ. The journey is in no way finished but the light God has provided is pointing the way to a closer walk with him I desperately need.
I just wanted to let you know a praise because of PCS. Our daughter Jenna has been having a lot of trouble in school ever since we moved to Coudersport. Her grades are all great but she has trouble sitting, concentrating, paying attention etc. Her teacher in January asked us to have her checked and diagnosed with ADHD. We made an appointment with the doctor and started the process. I had been praying and crying out to God for months over this and really did not want her labeled. I called a sister from PCS and told her what was going on. Then God revealed to me that when I was pregnant for Jenna that she had been cursed. I shared with her and we prayed right then and there and broke that curse over Jenna. We just got her report card and had a conference with her teacher. Her grades continue to be in the upper 90's but for the first time she got +'s on everything. Her teacher said that she is able to sit and pay attention; she is working without being easily distracted and doing great. Praise the Lord. Anyway I just wanted to share that with you and say Thank You and Abraham for all that you do with PCS. Without it I am afraid that Jenna would be on medication and living under a curse for the rest of her life.
The week of March the 29th was the most intensive, but yet best week of my life. God really revealed a lot of things to me. I had so many issues, but my main issue was not being a forgiving person...I had a lot of bitterness, confusion and mistrust built up in me. God really showered me with his love & presence this week. My husband and I both attended...attending PCS was the best thing that we could've done for our marriage...I got there feeling like a very broken person, but when I left I knew that I was a whole person. For the very first time in my life I was able to show and receive love...PRAISE GOD...Glory to Him.
Wow! What an awesome God we serve. I came to PCS with an evil spirit that I wanted gone. It was attached to me that I now realize by past sexual sins. I was really disappointed that some at the school did not point it out and drive it away. By the end of the week it was still hanging on although I now knew the root of it and the power on which it held on. On the last morning of the school I was awoken by a bright light that passed by me in bed. After it went by I felt a tremendous pressure on my chest and a warmth that went though me ... and out!! I was free of that spirit. God works in so many ways and will now have very little trouble limiting Him and what I can feel He can do. I praise God this is how he healed me. If it had been someone casting it out I would have doubted His all knowing power.
I had the privilege of being a part of the ministry team at PCS this past week. I will be the first to admit that healing is ongoing but I went with the intent to serve. I was so blessed to receive on Wednesday night when we covered inner healing. God brought clarity and comfort to me and allowed me to extend and receive forgiveness. To know that our God cares so much and tenderly reaches out to us really blows me away. I would also like to say what a blessing it was to watch people transformed before my eyes. I really do think we should do "before" and "after" pictures. God's faithfulness to His children shouldn't surprise us but it always does!!!
...Upon hearing for the first time about soul ties, I realized that I am still tied to my former husband and he to me. I have struggled with the frustration of not being able to stop thoughts of him from coming to my mind. I know that I have forgiven him. I have no bitterness or anger towards him, but he still crept every day into my thoughts so that I had to fight off the temptation of being angry and hurt all over again. Thursday I asked the Lord to return to me the part of my soul that I had given to him, and I asked Jesus to remove my former husband's soul and anything else that I am holding on to, and He has set me free! He has given me permission to close the door on the past, so that I can move forward.
"Today as I stood to worship, I was overwhelmed by the wholeness I feel. My heart is at peace. My soul is whole within me, and I have offered it gratefully to my Lord and King. I offer every part of me to Him as my sacrifice of praise. I am full today - not whammed! Like I sometimes would like to be, but I am full. No holes, no emptiness, no heartbreak - full of the Love of my Father and my Savior, complete in the Holy Spirit's control. I can now go home, ready to live for Him, die every day to me - free to be fully me as He created me to be. Thank you, Jesus!"
This past PCS in March was a great blessing to me! I was able to attend a year ago and then again this year with my husband¡K
When we returned home I asked my children to forgive me for the times that I failed to nurture them. My husband asked them to forgive him for the times that he failed to speak life to them. We explained to them with more detail how God was speaking to us. We had such a wonderful evening with our children that night. The following evening our older daughter was involved in serious car accident. The car she was a passenger in along with her friends, was totaled. By God's divine protection everybody was ok. Only minor scrapes and bruises.
The enemy came to kill, steal and destroy but our Heavenly Father protected our daughter. All curses over her have been canceled and she was covered by Jesus' divine blood! |
